The Radical Change.

I would like to share how my changing process was when I decided to change a few months ago. The process of changing from your old programming to new takes time and it would not be so easy at first. So I have faced numerous obstacles. My Subconscious mind was also testing out whether I could fall it's traps.

The minute when I decided to move from a P.E.I.S relationship (http://rammyasmusings.blogspot.my/2015/06/the-ripple-effect.html) my Subconscious got jammed. Basically I am trying to interrupt the programming that it has been practicing all the while. Now as i learn to response to every situation, slowly my Subconscious is learning to correct the programming. I would be very agitated whenever nature puts me in any of the situations that has related to P.E.I.S (Physical to Emotional to Intellect to Spirit)

I would update my mentor Elango Thiyagu, (http://elangothiyagu.com/) each and every time I face any situations that could being me back to old programming. May be not all the time. And I have my lessons there too. When I do not tell him how my Subconscious mind is trying its tricks, he would not be able to teach me about myself. Whenever I fail to tell him what is happening, my mind takes the advantage to bring me back to the old programming.

It was pouring me with tests and I tried my best to handle every situation very very preciously. Obviously, my old programming is being in a senses based relationship. That is your eyes see how a person looks and you want to have a relationship with the person. Senses are very powerful and I am facing a lots of challenges to come out of that programming. When you are trying hard to leave the old programming and move on, that is when you attract more of it.

A guy that you have last spoke in 2014, would text you to check whether you are still doing fine. I mean come on, it has been two years and why do you have to text me only when I am leaving from all these. Haha drama ? May be. But I need to see what is happening. Why he needs to text me after years? Yes. That is certainly my Subconscious mind triggered people to give me attention. It is trying weather I would still follow my senses based programming.

There’s another guy from Russia whom I seldom talk to and many more guys who could bring me back to old programming. When I told this to my mentor, he explained the ways my Subconscious is testing me out. Well we had a good laugh discussing about how strong the old programming is and how it could bring back the guy whom I last spoke in 2014 and also from Russia.

But on contrary, to a certain extent, it is good when my Subconscious attracting all these people. Only by doing this, it could correct the programming that has been programmed. The way I used to response to guys, and the way I am teaching my Subconscious to response to them now is totally different. I shall let my mind to adapt to the changes that I am making. Eventually it would learn and correct the ways to response to guys.

Talking about the ways, my Subconscious mind is testing me out, let me tell you how I am preparing myself to focus and attract less senses based guys. I have a goal in my life. I see the bigger picture of life. Above all these tiny issues, I have a big goal to be achieved. I occupy myself with work related to my goal. The wonderful team that I am working with, ET ideas (https://www.facebook.com/ETIdeasGroup/) helps me to get through all the obstacles and see the purpose of living life with the my new programming. The guidance of my mentor; teaching me a lot of things about myself. I have a long way to go to discover more deep sides of me. Life is full of lessons. You learn about yourself each and every day.  

My first attempt as a solo traveller

The moment I decided to travel alone, my mind asked questions like
 “Are you sure you want this?” “Would my parents agree for this?” “What would you do for your expenses?” “What if you get lost there?” and many more…

I started planning for this trip around early February. At that point of time, all I could do was research on Google. I did a lot of researches of some places that I would like to go. Most of the places are out of Malaysia. Some of the places that I want to go are Hawaii, Rome, Liverpool, Portugal and many more. I downloaded Trip Advisor (an app) to find out more about the places that I would like to visit. After searching quite a bit of information about all those places, I got a shock of my life. Yes it was out of my sight and very expensive. At that moment I actually thought that this trip isn’t happening.

After a few days of talking to myself, I spoke to my mentor, Elango Thiyagu. ( http://elangothiyagu.com/ ) He told me that money couldn’t be an obstacle for you to follow what your heart wants. I asked him I want to go, so is it okay to ask from my dad? He said you can try asking him but isn’t it so much more better by travelling in your own money. He also suggested a few ideas; he said why not you travel places around Malaysia first. I found that was a brilliant idea because there are many places that I have not visited even in Malaysia. Then I chose to travel to Malacca. I did my research on how to go get there; I read blogs of many travelers who’ve been to Malacca, the fares and ticket prices. It was really affordable and I roughly knew how much I would need to spend there.

I planned to save RM 10 from my pocket money every day. But I did not really follow it strictly and missed a few days. I was pretty much settled for the finance part. Then comes the question; how am I going to convince my parents to let me go alone? To be honest, I had a difficult time convincing them. I printed a schedule of what I am going to do there and showed them. As what my mentor usually says, Gen Xs need papers with black and white information; you need to show them the facts. You know what that actually worked! My dad didn’t really say anything after that and just nodded. I planned to go on a one day trip because did not want to shock my Subconscious mind as well as my parents. So I decided to take a bus to Malacca and bought the ticket a week before at Bandar Tasik Selatan Bus Station. It was only RM 13.40 - the most expensive one.

A night before, my logical mind came back! “I cannot believe I am going to do this” I took a lots of deep breathes and told myself that after all it is just Malacca and merely a few hours away.  I texted my mentor, he said that I am going to be alright and to call him if anything happens. I took an early 7.30am bus. I needed to take public transport to the bus station. So I left my house around 5.50am. I gave a hug to my mom, she was just checking if I have enough money. I took around RM 220 with me and most importantly I downloaded the map of Malacca. I got my power bank charged. I took my breakfast before the departure. After a few minutes of waiting I got into the bus and I slept off. I was too sleepy and got really comfortable seats.

I reached Malacca around 9.40am. I got down at Malacca Central Bus Terminal, and as I was supposed to take a taxi to Jonker Street, I walked around just to let my senses learn a little about the environment. Then I took a cab, I thought it was a cab. But it was like a more renting based one (kereta sewa) I was not aware that it’s not a metered taxi. I gave RM 20 just to travel a few kilometers to Jonker Street. I understood that it was expensive and it was my fault that I did not check.

Then I walked around Jonker Street. It was very early and some of the places were still closed. It is in Chinatown with many antiques, textiles and handicraft stores as well as galleries. Then I went to the Red Square, St. Paul Hill, Cheng Ho Cultural Museum and Flora de la mar Maritime Museum. I went for sightseeing and only Cheng Ho Cultural Museum needs you to pay RM 5 as entrance fee.  I was very tired walking for a few hours. Then I decided to have my early lunch around 11.30am because I was told that I needed to line up a long queue to enter the famous chicken rice shop. I spent around RM 20 for my lunch.

Then I continued walking. I decided to go to Menara Taming Sari. It is a ride that offers you a spectacular and panoramic view of Melaka from a height of 80 meters. It took around 7 minutes. I paid RM 15 and this is only if you show your identity card because they have different price for foreigners. After that I was walking towards Jonker Street and that time I got a call from my dad. He was just checking whether I was doing fine there. Then I decided to rent a bicycle and ride around Jonker Street. It was a bit difficult to ride in a busy road. So I went a bit far from Jonker Street. It was more like an empty road and the wind was so nice for that hot day.

I rode around looking for the famous Sateh Celup Shop. I asked one of the security guards there, he said that it has been closed for some time. Too bad I did not get to try it. Since it was extremely hot I taught of going to a cafe. I parked my bike and went in. This was around 3.30pm. Then I bumped into an Argentinean lady whom took the same bus with me from KL. I spoke to her. I introduced myself as what I doing currently and why I was there. She is a translator who translates Spanish to English and she has been travelling alone for some time and Malaysia is her third country.  Then both us took our bikes and went to the famous Cendol shop. I was explaining to her what it is and all. She wanted to continue with her writing and l left that place. I returned the bicycle. They only charged RM 2 for each hour.

Then the last spot I was left with was the River Cruise. The ticket was RM 15.90. It is 45 minutes boat ride on Sungai Melaka with an audio commentary explaining a little about the history of the place. It offers better scenery at night with colorful lights. You will get to see a Venice style bridge, colorful houses and a Ferris wheel along the way. It was a very calm and pleasant ride I would say. It made me recall all the things that I did on that day. I met a Malay Family. One of the ladies from the family came and asked me if I came alone. She said she saw me at Menara Taming Sari. Then I said yes and nodded.  She said that I am very brave and gave a tap in my shoulder. That only gives a radiant smile on my face. I felt the sense of freedom and adventure where I only need to follow my legs and nothing else. That was until around 5pm.

Then I saw Jonker Street was a bit too crowded because it was a weekend and in evening many stalls are set up there. Then I went for a walk, bought some foods and it was super delicious that I forgot to even take pictures of it. It was almost 6pm and I decided to leave around 6.30pm as my return bus was at 8pm. I needed to be at Bus station 30 minutes before the departure time. I went to Hard Rock cafe and had a drink and was just chilling under air-conditioning. I spend only around RM 12 there.

When I was about to leave, I saw some cabs waiting around. But I decided to walk a bit in front to the main road to avoid being caught in traffic. I reached Malacca Central around 7pm. I refreshed myself at the washroom there and it was just nice for me get into the bus. I called my dad just to inform that I was leaving because he would be picking me up from bus station. I was terribly tired and slept off during the entire journey. I reached KL around 10pm.

I assumed that both my mom and dad are going to be unhappy with me. I was totally wrong. My dad receives me with a big smile on his face. He was so happy and proud of me. I was sharing with him stories of what I did, and he started asking questions like how was this place, did you go to this place and how much did you spend. I felt so happy to have that conversation with my dad. I got home and gave a tight hug to my mom. She was happier than my dad. It was a very nice feeling to be there making both of them happy and proud by just doing what my heart wants. I’m really excited to go for more trips! But I shall save my money first. Haha!