The Radical Change.

I would like to share how my changing process was when I decided to change a few months ago. The process of changing from your old programming to new takes time and it would not be so easy at first. So I have faced numerous obstacles. My Subconscious mind was also testing out whether I could fall it's traps.

The minute when I decided to move from a P.E.I.S relationship (http://rammyasmusings.blogspot.my/2015/06/the-ripple-effect.html) my Subconscious got jammed. Basically I am trying to interrupt the programming that it has been practicing all the while. Now as i learn to response to every situation, slowly my Subconscious is learning to correct the programming. I would be very agitated whenever nature puts me in any of the situations that has related to P.E.I.S (Physical to Emotional to Intellect to Spirit)

I would update my mentor Elango Thiyagu, (http://elangothiyagu.com/) each and every time I face any situations that could being me back to old programming. May be not all the time. And I have my lessons there too. When I do not tell him how my Subconscious mind is trying its tricks, he would not be able to teach me about myself. Whenever I fail to tell him what is happening, my mind takes the advantage to bring me back to the old programming.

It was pouring me with tests and I tried my best to handle every situation very very preciously. Obviously, my old programming is being in a senses based relationship. That is your eyes see how a person looks and you want to have a relationship with the person. Senses are very powerful and I am facing a lots of challenges to come out of that programming. When you are trying hard to leave the old programming and move on, that is when you attract more of it.

A guy that you have last spoke in 2014, would text you to check whether you are still doing fine. I mean come on, it has been two years and why do you have to text me only when I am leaving from all these. Haha drama ? May be. But I need to see what is happening. Why he needs to text me after years? Yes. That is certainly my Subconscious mind triggered people to give me attention. It is trying weather I would still follow my senses based programming.

There’s another guy from Russia whom I seldom talk to and many more guys who could bring me back to old programming. When I told this to my mentor, he explained the ways my Subconscious is testing me out. Well we had a good laugh discussing about how strong the old programming is and how it could bring back the guy whom I last spoke in 2014 and also from Russia.

But on contrary, to a certain extent, it is good when my Subconscious attracting all these people. Only by doing this, it could correct the programming that has been programmed. The way I used to response to guys, and the way I am teaching my Subconscious to response to them now is totally different. I shall let my mind to adapt to the changes that I am making. Eventually it would learn and correct the ways to response to guys.

Talking about the ways, my Subconscious mind is testing me out, let me tell you how I am preparing myself to focus and attract less senses based guys. I have a goal in my life. I see the bigger picture of life. Above all these tiny issues, I have a big goal to be achieved. I occupy myself with work related to my goal. The wonderful team that I am working with, ET ideas (https://www.facebook.com/ETIdeasGroup/) helps me to get through all the obstacles and see the purpose of living life with the my new programming. The guidance of my mentor; teaching me a lot of things about myself. I have a long way to go to discover more deep sides of me. Life is full of lessons. You learn about yourself each and every day.