Learn, practice and change slowly.

I was an ordinary girl with so much of dramas and emotions. Today when I sit back and gaze at the people who remind me how I lived my life earlier, sometimes I feel it's sad that I wasted 20 years of my life. In contrary, I can also perceive it in a positive way; Nature wants me to go through these 20 years, so that I could see the bigger picture of life. Now I can see the importance of living life following your heart not your mind and senses. I am working with a group of wonderful people and they do listen to their heart. This help me in my personal growth and also business career. (ttps://www.facebook.com/ETIdeasGroup/)

The team working on their goals during Tuesday meetings. 

You heart has a blueprint of your life. I’m still not so sure how to address the heart. Whether to call it he or she! Since I am a girl I believe my heart is also a girl. Hahaha So I would like to address it as She. So coming back, she would know what you want in your life and your mind would try it’s best to not to let you to hear what it is. At certain points of your life your heart would speak to you. But if you don’t listen or maybe if you don’t know it’s your heart or mind, then it would keep quite. Only by being aware and conscious of it, we can use our will power to get what our heart wants. 
So how I see things now is different and to think back to how I used to be was hilarious. 

My family. It’s an ordinary family. My dad is a retired employee from Sin Chew Daily Printing Press. My mom is a housewife. Both of them are Gen- X and they do have the characteristics of a typical Gen-X's. I cannot blame them here because they have been trained to do that. Finances in family were not that difficult as my dad has a travel and tour company. They have their own dreams and wishes on how to build their children up. So when I decided to change my perception towards life and re- program my Subconscious Mind, they didn’t like it. It was totally contrary from their view of life.

I faced the normal dramas in my family, where petty little issues can easily derail our communication, and as importantly I realized how strong P.E.I.S was in my family. (http://pensiveyumi.blogspot.my/2015/11/the-siep-principle.html). Check out this blog to know what is P.E.I.S and S.I.E.P (which I am going to talk later in this blog). Our senses see and hear what is happening, we become emotional over things and then come to misguided conclusions because of our critical thinking about certain things. But once we started thinking in a P.E.I.S way, it has already caused massive amount of damage. So for me to get out of this way of thinking was pretty hard and I am still trying my best. Also check out this blog where she explains her experiences on S.I.E.P. ( http://rammyasmusings.blogspot.my/2015/06/the-ripple-effect.html)

How my life was full of P.E.I.S? (Physical to emotions to intellectual to spiritual) During my school days I did not like being scolded by mom, dad or sometimes sisters too. But that does not mean I now like being scolded. It is just that now I understand why it is happening and how I am supposed to respond and not react for that situation. My mom used to scold me like nobody’s business if she finds me procrastinating on my chores. But apart from that I also have to say that I was not making them happy as I go back home late very often. I made them upset many times. The words that I used may have hurt them. So I also contributed for the drama. I did not like them finding faults in me. I hated my sisters for being so rude and I myself was an egoistic junk. I used to hide their things and pretend that I did not know what happened to them. 


And this was when I was really small, okay! So as I grew up, I reduced doing all these nonsense. I was tired of doing it but still was carrying the same characteristics. Back then, I used to make dramas for tiny issues. Just for a remote control, t-shirts, water bottles, bags, and many more.

Now the lesson here is you are who you see. So if you see that someone is being rude it means that actually you have that character in you. So I started seeing the good in others, although sometimes if I don’t admire their character I try to look at it from their position and try to think the good things that I could point out from their character. 

This is a picture briefly explains what is S.I.E.P from Rammya's mussings. 

But now to think of all the dramas that I was involved in, I just want to sit and laugh. I was so childish and I did not know I had so much of things to see out there. So when I started practicing S.I.E.P, I thought of trying things in a different way, finding out what Nature has for me to explore and what my heart wants to embark on. So as I am trying to follow S.I.E.P, whenever my mom scolds, I take a deep breathe. I will see what Nature is trying to teach me here. I am practicing to respond and not to react. 

At first it was quite hard to follow. I would be texting my mentor whenever any of these dramas took place at my house. He taught me to analyse the situation.(http://elangothiyagu.com/) Check out his blog to know more about him. Why is it happening? Well definitely the situation that I was going through was P.E.I.S. So when someone is changing from P.E.I.S to S.I.E.P they will attract more P.E.I.S situations and also individuals. So that was when I started attracting many dramas that was led by only the senses. Now it still happens. But I start finding it funny and I try my best not to contribute anything or to get involved in it. I realized it was also the old programming of my Subconscious where it was trying to do its work, which is to follow the things that has been already programmed. 

So now I am moving on to another important lesson in my life. And this is also when I was changing my programming to S.I.E.P. Well let me tell you what was my world before this and what kind of people were around me. All of my friends were in relationships. Both of my sisters were in relationships. And I am not so sure whether all of their relationships were S.I.E.P, but most are attracted by their senses. That was what I thought relationships were supposed to be like. I did not have any other exposures in relationships. 

When I saw and heard stories from people who were in senses based relationships, my favorite Subconscious fella also programmed it into me. I cannot blame her either because she is doing her work. I have been programming it wrongly. My mentor taught me how a relationship should be, why all these senses based relationships aren't leading to your growth, why a relationship has to be S.I.E.P. I’m not a pro at it yet and I am still learning this particular part. At first my Subconscious could not accept the fact of S.I.E.P relationships. 

This is because my earlier programming was too strong. I even fell sick because my Subconscious couldn’t accept these facts.  It is just that I need to take more conscious effort to put it into practice. I myself do attract senses based individuals. All of sudden a long lost friend could just call me and ask to meet up. I received texts asking whether I am still single. To be honest I failed the tests Nature gave me. I let my mind distract me. 

Apart from that, I don’t really have much experience in S.I.E.P relationships as I am still learning. I know there are a lot of things for me learn in a S.I.E.P relationship. So I will write about this in detail when I have more experience on it.