My mentor was teaching me that S.I.E.P based way, you should not control your emotions. You could not stop what is happening around you. And you should not try to do so. By controlling your emotions, you have already reacted. So that is already considered P.E.I.S. In contrary, S.I.E.P is when you understand clearly why is this happening and what are the better ways to handle it. Knowing that the situation has something to teach you, you would not get emotional.
So as I mentioned earlier, I am trying hard to come out from it, I tend to make a lot of mistakes. Because, to create a mess, my sub only needs a starter. It creates situations so that I would react to it. The situation that it had created was, people finding fault at me. Everything happened in a blink of an eye. My mind knows that I don't like people doing that. As it does that, I reacted. I got angry over the person whom was trying to find fault at me.
By right, I should I have understood that this is another test from nature. I have to say that it is not going to be easy at first and it takes time. And I also know that this is something that could be done. I mean come on! Why not ? Let's do this. If this is what I want, then I shall go through all the tests nature is giving. The reminder that I got from my mentor was, he was saying that the situations and tests that I am going through now are just the starting. Eventually I would receive more and it is not going to be easy.
He was constantly asking whether this is what i want and I could always go back to my old days whenever i want to do so. But I know I am not going to do it. Facing all these may sometimes sound funny. Because the different ways my sub is trying to bring me back. If I passed one test and the next one is just few minutes later.
As i realized that people finding fault, basically people are just giving suggestions. No one is finding fault or laughing at me. It is my sub who has triggered people's emotions and created all these. Yes I am not here to blame anyone. I take full responsibility for what had happened. When i reacted, I made the other person to react back and later on I kept quite because it started from me. The other person was also reacting because of me.
So as I mentioned earlier, I am trying hard to come out from it, I tend to make a lot of mistakes. Because, to create a mess, my sub only needs a starter. It creates situations so that I would react to it. The situation that it had created was, people finding fault at me. Everything happened in a blink of an eye. My mind knows that I don't like people doing that. As it does that, I reacted. I got angry over the person whom was trying to find fault at me.
By right, I should I have understood that this is another test from nature. I have to say that it is not going to be easy at first and it takes time. And I also know that this is something that could be done. I mean come on! Why not ? Let's do this. If this is what I want, then I shall go through all the tests nature is giving. The reminder that I got from my mentor was, he was saying that the situations and tests that I am going through now are just the starting. Eventually I would receive more and it is not going to be easy.
He was constantly asking whether this is what i want and I could always go back to my old days whenever i want to do so. But I know I am not going to do it. Facing all these may sometimes sound funny. Because the different ways my sub is trying to bring me back. If I passed one test and the next one is just few minutes later.
As i realized that people finding fault, basically people are just giving suggestions. No one is finding fault or laughing at me. It is my sub who has triggered people's emotions and created all these. Yes I am not here to blame anyone. I take full responsibility for what had happened. When i reacted, I made the other person to react back and later on I kept quite because it started from me. The other person was also reacting because of me.
But if this had happened a year ago the argument would have just continued. Now I could understand why it happened and what am I supposed to do for the next time when anything similar happened. I spoke about this to another good friend of mine. She told me something was very encouraging and motivating. She said my Subconscious is learning. It happens. So that your Subconscious can learn things out of it. It is finding its own way to adapt to the changes.
So wish me luck to handle things better next time :)
So wish me luck to handle things better next time :)
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